this is the third day since i landed in Singapore and everything pretty much remained the same, except that the feelings are different now. of course before i returned home i never expected everyone to remain the same as before, however sometimes i would feel flustered whenever reality knocks over me. yet after reflecting on myself, i realized that i may be the one who change the most. my friends in the states, who have impacted my life the most, are constantly in my mind. those people and the memories we have created together are the constant topics i had with my singaporean friends and it soon drew on me that they are probably sick of hearing another word of it from me. on the other hand, it is relatively hard for me to assimilate into their social circles too since i have never been part of it and the strange feeling remains.

everything i see or do reminds me of you, soso. i'm still trying to get used to life without you but it's so hard. each memory we shared triggered my deepest emotion and i wanna shunned away from those memories. but i've promised you i would always reminiscence our memories so that it would not get blurry when time fades. chenxi surprises me when she told me she misses me every second. to be honest i would never expected to hear that from her. thank you for including me during your trip at SFO, even if it means bringing me up occasionally and telling each other how much you guys misses me.

Soso:

i never felt this way before, everything i do reminds me of you
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too
and when you're gone, the words that i need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay
i miss you....

because i miss you so much, i wanna make the HK trip happen...