i should be studying but my mind kinda wanders off every now and then
i was navigating everybody's blog like almost everyday, with no exception today
it was when i came across Edward's blog that i realized that he still had the link to my old blog, a blog which i have created in 2004
i was baffled by the many stuffs written by me at the age of 17
back then we were all so young and naive and i kinda miss those good old days
st's comment on my tag board left me laughing real hard -> St: st loves tcp. HAHA
i can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuffs we've done together. yet, to be honest i wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone but you
sometimes i wish i could go back to the days when i was a kid, or rather, a teenager
as we grow up, we soon realize that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. you may have your heart broken umpteen times and recovery becomes harder each time. you'll cry because you'll start to realize that real world isn't a fairy tale. time passes quickly and you'll eventually realize the 'forever' will never exist in your dictionary. people who have left an impact on your life started to slip away as time flies.
i'm no longer daddy's protected little girl
i've learnt to live my own life, learnt who to trust and who not to
i forgive people not because that i'm weak. i forgive because i don't see the need to hold grudge
it's never easy to grow up among people who always seem 'flawless' as compared to you. everyone seems to have everything you don't and inferiority will seep in unknowingly.
right now,
i've learnt to love myself before expecting people to love me
i've learnt to accept the fact that everyone i've grown to love will be taken away at some point in my life and scattered
but i'm still learning to say good-bye and let go...

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::My lovely Chiuyun::

Happy 20th Birthday!
It sucks that I'm not being able to be there for you
But I'm sure we'll have tons of birthdays ahead which we'll be able to spend together =)
You'll have all of my blessings here!!!

my first ever movie in the U.S. - Good Luck Chuck starring Dane Cook and Jessica Alba!

i won't say that this movie is a smash hit of the year, with all the gross-out moments and stuffs, but there are some gags in between the scenes which makes it hilarious, but it died down very soon.

I'm pinning to watch a chick film next week, Sydney White, starring Amanda Bynes. Oh and I've yet to catch Superbad, which is strongly recommended!!!

ROADTRIP TO PHOENIX [09/16/07]

hong kong dim sum!


Cheesecake Factory

has chinese buffet for dinner

i agree with you totally, Sweetie!
on my part, I feel that blogging is truly a place to vent my anger and frustrations
anyway, i'm here to share with you some of the pictures I've taken in Tucson. The ones I've taken in Phoenix will be uploaded as soon as I received them from my friend =)
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Gahee's birthday - a mini party at my studio

we made gahee a birthday cake during her birthday. Effort attributed to Ms So-so
guys!!! did you all notice what's in the bowl??? IT'S LAKSA!!! Those were prepared by me!!!!! Are you guys amazed???????????? I was way over the clouds when my friends complimented my skills!!!!!

学习生命

我本害怕孤单,直到我学会爱自己.

我本害怕失败,直到我体会不尝试,则只有失败一途.

我本害怕成功,直到我理解值得一试,好让自己快乐.

我本害怕人言,直到我学会,不管如何,人们总会对我有意见.

我本害怕遭拒,直到我学会自信.

我本害怕痛苦,直到我学会此乃成长之必经.

我本害怕真相,直到我看出谎言之丑.

我本害怕生活,直到我体验其美.

我本害怕死亡,直到我了解它并不是终点,而是开始.

我本害怕命运,直到我了解我有能力改变生活.

我本害怕憎恨,直到我看见无知更糟.

我本害怕爱,直到我心感动,它让黑夜消褪,进入无限光明.

我本害怕遭人嘲弄,直到我学会如何自我解嘲.

我本害怕长大,直到我得以日增智慧.

我本害怕未来,直到我体悟生命渐次美好.

我本害怕恋爱,直到我知道有一个人可以和你相知相守此生不逾.

我本害怕过往,直到我体会到它已无伤于我.

我本害怕黑暗,直到我见星夜之美.

我本害怕光亮,直到我学会真理给我力量.

我本害怕改变,直到我看到最美的蝴蝶尚需在展翅前,经历蜕变.

害怕只让人更裹足不前，一事无成；跨出勇敢的第一步，世界是宽广的。

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Baobao will bear these in mind

i'm used to having you guys online at night (on my side)
and i was caught in bafflement when i realized that none of you are online at this time
'what happened to you guys???' I was wondering...
Suddenly I realized that school has started for all of you, which explains why I can never see you guys online again
I'm upset...
It seems like now we'll never get a chance to chat online because of the time difference and commitments.....

i'm seeking for something right now, a will that enables me to look optimistic ahead
目前的我好迷惘
跌入深渊的我能够找到毅力和勇气走出来吗????
也许这一切都是个错误
孤单一人的我好渴望家人和亲朋好友给予的温暖
别问我发生了什么事
事实上什么事都没发生
一切都一言难尽
或许真的有一天能够找到出口
也许...

it seems that I'm posting all the unhappy stuffs recently
i'm sorry if I did make any of you worried
but today, I'm superbly duper M-A-D at myself
I wanna slap myself, if only I could in front of so many students!!!!!!!!
My first class today starts at 10am, or so I'd thought...
I went to the lecture room early and waited patiently for my lecture to begin... I spotted my lecturer and my TA at the front of the lecture hall, but they seemed to leave after a few minutes. Perhaps they will be back since I'm indeed early for class, I thought.
This unknown lecturer came in after several waiting minutes and open a power point on global warming...
'Wait a minute, this doesn't seem right. Ain't I at a history class. What has it to do with global warming?' I thought. But I decided against leaving the class because those slides may not be her teaching material.
I checked the clock thrice, I checked my cell phone twice and DAMN, I realized I'm at the wrong class. It's already 11am. My class had just ended!!!
I'M SOOOOOOOO PISS OFF AT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SO UPSET BY THE FACT THAT I'VE MISSED MY CLASS!!!!!!!
PLEASE TELL ME THERE IS ANOTHER MUCH BLUR-ER PERSON THAN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhh...
I'm at the brink of breaking down
It seems that all the pressures are pressing me down and I feel really suffocated
And the fact that my thousand bucks doesn't show up in my bank balance after depositing it a few days ago makes me wanna cry...
If I don't get the money back, either my dad shoots me or I kill myself......

Barbecue and mountain hiking at Madera Canyon

when i was napping,
i thought i heard the opening sound of the gate and the roaring sound of mum's Mercedes-Benz - mummy is home again, i thought happily!
i thought i heard the chattering voices of papa and my brothers in the dinning room
that is what a typical Sunday afternoon is about, isn't it?
but when i emerged from my nap, i realized i am no longer in my familiar bedroom
where am i?
depression sets in and loneliness engulfed me completely...

A-mei - 如果你也听说


我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么

为什么脆弱时候想你更多

＊如果你也听说 有没有想过我

像普通旧朋友 还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么负荷 舍不得 又无可奈何