i didn't exactly expect myself to break down when it was time for jingxuan to tear away from us
even though our relationship was strained years ago and we often get into lotsa arguments, fights and accusations, i still love him. He is still my little brother.
needless to say, as an older sister, it pains me to see him being so nervous or even terrified about entering a whole new phase of life.
i swear he was suppressing his tears when we parted and that was too much for me to bear... thats when i cried.
you see, he has been sheltered since young and has never experienced any hardships at all and it worries me
yet, i'm hopeful that NS would change him into a better man.

i am waiting to see the change in him...