perfect

i've lost all my songs in my ipod which amounts to nearly a thousand

just perfect!

life has been simple these few days, not exactly fulfilling, yet contented
i came upon a simple realization that i don't have to embrace a lot of friends
just a couple who truly understand me and accept me for who i am would be sufficient
erin and i went for movie hopping yesterday evening
we bought a movie ticket for Martian Child, but instead of leaving the cinema after the end credits, we sneaked into the theater which we assumed would air American Gangster next
oh well, when we were in the theater, we realized that the theater is airing the scenes which are towards the ending. There were guards outside the theater so leaving the theater wasn't much of an option for us. Instead, we decided to sit through the last part of the movie and wait for the next airing time slot. But of course we refused to even catch a glimpse of the screen since we would be watching again later and the audio is really distracting. So what we decided to do was to withdraw our shades and blast our ipods. Imagine us wearing dark shades in total darkness. Somehow Soso thought that the whole incident was a total joke so she was giggling and suppressing her laughter throughout the whole movie! Yea yea, it was hilarious. Both of us always seem to do erratic stuffs whenever we both are together :p

something kinda surprise me. My good friends in Singapore suddenly decided that they miss talking to me and suddenly, they would initiate conversation on MSN since last weekend. this is pretty weird considering that they are forever busy... Joyce, Josephine, Nicole huh huh huh?

My spirit has been uplifted since last week because I've long since straightened my thoughts.
hehehehe

my world is spinning before me
i feel like i could drop down dead immediately
there are some things which are better left unsaid
but no, i heard things, too loaded in fact
i recalled that I've learnt a valuable lesson during a literature class in JC

"He went like one that hath been stunned,
And is of sense forlorn :
A sadder and a wiser man,
He rose the morrow morn"
- The Rime of Ancient Mariner

it is unwise to be too sure of one's own wisdom.
the wiser you get, the sadder you are because you take in the good sides and the bad sides of the world
so right now, I foolishly wish that I am ignorant or at least I will try to pretend to be

So tonight is the night when I have to learn to do without Soso's companionship
She, being away for the next four days would mean that I would be totally alone for the next four days
I've no classes, no friends, no dates
Life is boring as hell
This long weekend could in fact be a perfect excuse for reflection time, a private time for me to ponder on which path I should proceed with, which University should I apply to, and which location would be the best option for me etc
Hopefully I won't indulge in endless cycles of self-wallowing because that's just plain pathetic!

I hope that by the time I returned home next summer, everybody would notice the change in me
I hope that I've transformed into a much stronger person or else I would start questioning God why he put me through these obstacles.

Much too many tears have been shed
Feel kinda bad towards my family and dear friends for causing unnecessary fuss over my frequent breakdowns
I'm proud to announce that I've straightened my unchained thoughts and decided against dwelling on the unchangeable facts

Recently, a senior whom I've always respected told me that 'friends are like passer-by'. It is fate or destiny that allows them to cross our lives at some point in life but after the intersection, we all have to move on with our own separate paths. Does that mean that there is no such thing as forever or everlasting? I hate to believe in that, or rather I don't wanna. But being out here, fending on my own allows me to witness the true colors of some people's intention. I have always believe in only the goods in others, and I pinned that I will never ever changed my perception, but reality forbids me. Mummy told me that fate is unavoidable, even if my friends lack appreciation and warmth, I still have to show them my love and concern unconditionally. It is always much easier putting the words in my mouth than actually applying it in reality. But I will put in my utmost effort to become a 'saint' ==

So this is Halloween week and I'm back to share pictures with you guys =)

Oct 26th - Halloween Party






Oct 27th - Halloween party at Jooming's host family's house




a game of apples bobbing... We came out with a brilliant plan to take a bite of the apple without actually touching it!

it's fine time to crave pumpkins! My first attempt on craving pumpkins. What a nice experience =)


Can u guess which pumpkin is crave by me? Hint: the cutest one!!! Let me know your guess on the tagboard ^^

Old Tucson - Amusement park filled with haunted houses. It's a disappointment that there ain't any thrill rides though :x

i like her... she's cool!


Oct 28th - Halloween party at Erin's host family's






bonfire... it's so cool when the fire grew...
i enjoy sitting on that...