I was amused by something I've read on a forum today. I chanced upon an O' level student asking this supposingly sounded so familiar question, whether dropping A-maths would really matters because she feels that she is more inclined towards arts core courses and mathematics is a struggle for her but is afraid that it would affect her pursuit in University. She then said she was forced to drop that subject should she failed her re-test, regardless if it is against her will. It is not nice to know that after all these years, the education system in Singapore still turns my stomach around. My decision not to go too further into this subject is for my own good for fear that I would be put behind bars for the so-called accusation.

But well I am still gonna say despite my secondary school forbid me from taking A-maths for O' levels because I could not meet the cut-off quota (thanks for almost ruining my future), I'm better off than a lot of students in Singapore who ended up like me, denied taking A-maths. I am now studying in a country whose educational system is so flexible that I'm able to take mathematic classes in college which is equivalent to A-maths in secondary school and C-maths in Junior College. Here in the U.S., nothing is impossible and nothing is never too late...

The sun set relatively early recently probably because dreary winter is approaching and for some reason, winter really makes a person's mood gray. For some reason I realized I'm always all by myself in campus. On my way home from my evening class, there was a band playing at the UA mall and I sat by a bench under a huge pine tree, ate my dinner quietly as I enjoyed the music played by the band and the serenity that surrounded the cool night air. I like solitary and it feels good to be alone and carefree some times, but I hate the loneliness that followed after it.

I miss the good old days when I got so used to SoSo's presence and her companionship. I imagine her sitting beside me on the bench. None of us have to open our mouths yet all we have to do is to just sit side-by-side enjoying the music and the cool breeze and each other's presence. How nice is it to have someone next to you? I miss and I wish, but with the knowledge that a she or a second person like her would never be around again...