the ogre inside me is resurfacing
i shouldn't say it is back again because this ugly ogre has always been inside of me
it has never really left completely
and is growing hideously in a way which i detest

someone once told me that i am an awesome girl
no one ever told me that and i was skeptical
i do wanna believe it very badly
but you know, for a person who has forever been living in her friends' shadows, forever the alienated, forever the one who is not outstanding, forever the one whose presence means nothing to anyone,
you can't blame her for feeling inferior
and guess what comes after the inferiority?
that's right, the ogre...

it is ugly, it is hateful, it is abominable and is full of other negativities
and in the end, i am the one who is thoroughly hurt by this ogre
so why can't i knock it, plunge it, tear it away?

right.....

because it is stuck with me for life...