i should be studying but my mind kinda wanders off every now and then
i was navigating everybody's blog like almost everyday, with no exception today
it was when i came across Edward's blog that i realized that he still had the link to my old blog, a blog which i have created in 2004
i was baffled by the many stuffs written by me at the age of 17
back then we were all so young and naive and i kinda miss those good old days
st's comment on my tag board left me laughing real hard -> St: st loves tcp. HAHA
i can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuffs we've done together. yet, to be honest i wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone but you
sometimes i wish i could go back to the days when i was a kid, or rather, a teenager
as we grow up, we soon realize that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. you may have your heart broken umpteen times and recovery becomes harder each time. you'll cry because you'll start to realize that real world isn't a fairy tale. time passes quickly and you'll eventually realize the 'forever' will never exist in your dictionary. people who have left an impact on your life started to slip away as time flies.
i'm no longer daddy's protected little girl
i've learnt to live my own life, learnt who to trust and who not to
i forgive people not because that i'm weak. i forgive because i don't see the need to hold grudge
it's never easy to grow up among people who always seem 'flawless' as compared to you. everyone seems to have everything you don't and inferiority will seep in unknowingly.
right now,
i've learnt to love myself before expecting people to love me
i've learnt to accept the fact that everyone i've grown to love will be taken away at some point in my life and scattered
but i'm still learning to say good-bye and let go...

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::My lovely Chiuyun::

Happy 20th Birthday!
It sucks that I'm not being able to be there for you
But I'm sure we'll have tons of birthdays ahead which we'll be able to spend together =)
You'll have all of my blessings here!!!